Day 4

For once I have something else to report besides tears! Don't get me wrong, today wasn't perfect, and tears were definitely shed, but I needed Will to have a good day today, and he actually had a decent one! After last night, I wasn't sure how much more he or I could take! Today he started crying as soon as I picked up his backpack, before we had even gotten into the car. He cried on and off pretty much the whole way there. At the request of his teacher, I had packed him the blanket that he sleeps with at home and his lovey, that he doesn't use, but it stays in his bed. She was hoping these things would comfort him while he was away from home and help him nap. That is our major issue at this point. He isn't napping well, and when he isn't napping during nap time, he is crying, which is disrupting the other kids from napping. His teachers have not told me he is disrupting the other kids, but it doesn't take a genius to figure out that nap time is probably not too peachy for the rest of the class with a screaming child. Anyways, when I picked him up today, he was just walking around, looking pretty pitiful, but they said that he slept for an hour and ten minutes which is major progress from yesterdays 45...they also said he went a whole 2.5 hour span where he was totally fine-no tears for those 150 minutes!! So at least today was better than yesterday. We can only hope for small victories at this point, and I feel like we got one today. After I dropped him off this morning, I was at my wits end. I had so many mixed feelings. Several times today I found myself in his room with his blanket in my lap, on my knees, pleading with God to please let today be a better day. To calm his anxious heart and help him to get a good nap. I don't know what else to do but to pray. I have always been told that you feel closer to God when you pray regularly. I don't think God and I could be any closer at this point-I find myself lifting prayers up for Will several times an hour, while doing random things. But it is the only thing that comforts me while he is there and I have no idea how he is doing. I know God loves him far more than I do, so I should trust that He will look out for him while I can't. Easier said than done, but I am working on it.
To top it all off, WILL CAME HOME WITH HIS FIRST ARTWORK TODAY!!!! I teared up when his teachers handed it to me (I am pretty sure they think I am a basket case!!). This is Will's first ever art work and it was almost as if God knew that I needed a "pick-me-up" after a rather tough week.

So if you are one of those people out there that has been praying for Will (and for me), THANK YOU!!! And if you aren't, please get busy...I have 186 more school days until summer vacation again :)