Potty Training Drop Out

It was my hope that I would report back yesterday that boot camp paid off and little man is completely potty trained. Well I stayed away from the blog until now because I was about to LOSE my mind. Potty training is by far the hardest thing I have ever had to do in my entire life. We started boot camp on Saturday morning. LOTS of accidents followed. Cleaning up the mess was not the problem though-it was not leaving the house for 3 days. I was going stir crazy which meant my patience was running out...not fair to Will! On Monday I felt like we were seeing a little progress. He told me Monday morning that he had to go and we made it to the potty in time, keeping his undies dry. Monday afternoon was a different story. After his nap, he peed in his underwear and then about 30 minutes later peed and pooped in his underwear while I was feeding Alex. Trying to keep my eyes on him every second while still tending to a 7 week old was making me crazy. With John at work, I absolutely could not devote 100% of my attention to Will which is what he needed to be successful. Tuesday we sent him to school and they said he did not go all day. They put him on the potty repeatedly but he wouldn't use it. When I picked him up, this concerned me. They put a diaper on him at nap and he woke up wet, but otherwise had not gone. I took him into the bathroom at school hoping that if I was in there with him it might make it a little less scary. I sat him on the potty and he said "hurts mommy." I asked him what hurt and he pointed to the seat. Of course their potty didn't have a squishy cushion like Will's Lightening McQueen potty and I guess he just decided he didn't want to pee on the hard potty. We got home and I immediately put him on the potty and he used it...a lot! The rest of the night we had no accidents but he also wasn't asking to go. We put him on the potty right before bath and before bed and he didn't do a thing. This morning we were home again. I was by myself with both boys. He woke up wet with poop in his diaper. I immediately changed it and put on his big boy underwear. I was really trying hard today to give it my best effort hoping that today might be the day he turned the corner. By 8:30 he had had 2 cups of milk and was running around like a wild man. I knew he had to go and I kept reminding him to tell me. I was about to have to feed Alex so I point blank asked him if he needed to go. He told me no so I started to feed Alex. Not 2 minutes later he came running to me saying "Uh oh pee pee on the floor." He didn't catch himself and stop....there was urine ALL over his bathroom floor. At least he was on tile!!! I stopped feeding Alex, tried not to make a big deal about it, cleaned it up, and reminded him that pee pee goes in the potty and we want to keep Buzz Lightyear dry (underwear). About 20 minutes later we were playing in his room. He ran to the kitchen and I followed him. He proceeded to pee and poop all in his underwear in the kitchen. THEN HE PUT HIS HAND IN HIS UNDERWEAR AND HIS FINGER CAME OUT BROWN. I lost it. I started crying, he started crying, Alex was crying. At this point IT WAS NOT WORTH IT!!! I had talked to several friends and John about not giving up. I was trying to stay positive but this was the straw that broke the camel's back. We are leaving for the beach for an entire week on Saturday with my whole family. I did not want our trip to be ruined because we were too stressed out about the potty situation. After we get home the following Saturday Will starts in a new classroom with new teachers that Monday. I am sure that is going to send him over the edge for a week at least (He doesn't like change....can you tell???). John and I discussed these things before starting boot camp, worrying that we might not be choosing the best time. I had convinced myself though that by doing the boot camp we would be done in 3 days. Like magic or something. The boot camp was a good start and I did see how for some kids it can work wonders. It just wasn't the case with Will. Maybe I am a quitter.....whatever. I am over it. I had to think long and hard this morning before pulling the diapers back out what was best for Will and our mental health. Was I pushing on and making all involved miserable just so I could say that we successfully potty trained our kid in 3 days using the boot camp method??? Realistically, I knew he wasn't going to have it by Friday and Saturday morning we leave for the beach (LONG car ride) where he will pretty much be in a swim diaper from dawn until dusk for 6 days. I couldn't really see us being able to keep up with our own methods when he would be in water all day. So I quit. We are all much happier as a result and we will tackle it again sometime in the fall. This parenting thing is tough. I am daily reminded that I am not in control. Will will get it on his own time. Much luck out there to any of you about to potty train. No sugar coating-it is hard stuff!!
On another note, isn't he absolutely adorable in his big boy underwear....even if he does pee all over them :)