We go to the doctor tomorrow so I'll be back with 2 week stats, but for now I'm just going to keep it real for a minute. Yall, two is hard. Like really hard. I know this is all new and this is an adjustment phase and "this too shall pass..." blah blah blah, but for now it is just plain hard. On the days that Will does not go to school I find myself about to lose it. On Monday I said he wasn't bad, just busy. Well today he was a little bad. Threw tantrums while I was trying to feed Alex, when I sent him to time out, he went, but slammed the door on his way to his room (that sent me over the edge and I seriously had to wait and breathe before going into his room for fear that I might spank him a little too hard). I have to keep reminding myself that he is two and he doesn't understand all that he should about this situation and all he knows is that, and I quote, he wants "to play choo choos with Mama NOW!!" He loves Alex and wants to constantly touch, poke, look at him. This is all well and good until he just. won't. stop. He doesn't listen the first time (again, I have to remind myself that he is 2), but trying to predict his next move and control his actions towards Alex is exhausting. I find myself on the days he is home all day constantly saying "stop," "no," "please stop," etc. I told John I feel like the bad guy all day. There are fun and happy moments in between but overall trying to figure out how to balance and manage 2 at home is crazy chaos right now. I don't have enough hands. Enough time. Enough patience. Tonight when I was saying prayers with Will, I asked him who we should pray for. Without hesitation the first person he said was Mommy. Usually I come last, as he mentions people in pairs, and Mommy and Daddy, Bent Bent and Alex are usually last. This really hit home with me. Out of everyone that we mention on a nightly basis that need prayer, I am the first. I need more patience. I need grace. I need forgiveness for when I really blow it and lose it with Will when he doesn't deserve it. I need to calm down. So pray for us. We are loving our family of 4 and wouldn't have it any other way...it just takes some getting used to!
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Oh Brooke...I love that you are so honest. If you want to feel normal, go back and read my posts from claire's first 6 months. REally, i sounded like i had entered hell. :) You do know it gets better, BUT if anyone says they don't think 2 is hard, they are lying!!! it is quite the adjustment. And after those 6 months, i adored every minute and still do...BUT it is still not easy. But we are blessed yes and God is good! if you ever need an ear, call! i get it!! :)
Yep. I'm with ya! It's hard and is seeming to get harder.
In a few months we will enter your stage. I am so excited and nervous all at the same time. We have been and will continue to pray for your family's transition. Just remember two things 1. you are just in week two and I dont know how your first month was with Will but mine with Kylie was very challenging and 2. God is with you....I just started reading Shepherding a Child's Heart. Not that you have time to read it right now but I highly recommend it. Praying for you! Both boys are beautiful!
Two is hard! Two was harder than one for us. I felt the same way; and still do. I feel like the words that come out of my mouth are negative..."stop it, don't do it, no, i said no!" I wonder some days if I give my children any positive reinforcement but I know that the Lord is holding me up each day; those days where I think I can't possibly take any more. It does get better and he will begin to understand more and more each day. love you
YOU ARE NORMAL! I almost lost it when we had two! Two for me was so much harder than 3! (Especially when the first one is still so little) Believe me though...it will get better and better each week. Routines will fall into place, but still there will be those days when all is lost! Just know we all feel the same and we must remember God is by our side and Will will still love you no matter what! I have always said that I need to be an octopus with 8 arms! :) Love you and praying for you!! You really are doing great! Hey...he is only 2 weeks old and you have made it to DQ!! :)
Hey girl, keep hanging in there. I know that things will continue get smoother and the Lord has picked you out specifically to be Will and Alex's mama. He will give you what you need to do this job!!!
You will survive...I really can't say that I remember those days, but Tre' and Erin are not even 2 years apart so I know I had some rough days, but I survived to crazily have two more kids so you most definitely will.
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