Dear Alex,

Dear Alex,
The past few days have flown by in a whirlwind as we have been busy making last minute preparations for your arrival. It is incredibly hard for me to believe that you will be here in less than 12 hours. We have done endless loads of little laundry, finished up your little room, bought last minute necessities, sterilized bottles and pumping parts, and tried to imagine what life will be like when we bring you home in a few short days. Your big brother, Will, definitely knows about you and talks about you and we pray for you, but I am not quite sure that he really understands that once you come out, you will come home with us and stay :) Your daddy and I asked Will today if he was ready for you to come out and play choo choos to which he replied, "NO!!!" But if you ask him if he is going to love you....kiss you.....hug you.....help bathe you, he is super excited about all of those things. He endearingly refers to you as Baby Axe. Your oldest brother, Bentley, for sure knows what is up. All the tell-tale signs have surfaced again and there is no denying that another little person is going to be invading his space. If you ask me though, I think he is secretly pretty excited about it. He likes to pretend that he and Will have a love/hate relationship, but he is a sucker for the little guy at heart!
Your daddy installed your car seat tonight-the final thing on what seemed like a never-ending honey do list. He even took Will out to show him where you would ride. Will seemed to like that you would be beside him. Bentley quickly realized that your seat is where his seat normally is and walked right back inside and went to his bed....almost as if to say "figures...."
Today once your daddy was home from work, we headed to the pool to spend what would be our last family time just the three of us. Don't get me wrong, we are SUPER excited about meeting you tomorrow. I am not anxious about the delivery or recovery, I am only anxious about how your big brother is going to handle it all. Truth be told, I am also a little anxious about what you will look like. I can't wait to know if you will be dark and handsome just like your brother, or if you will look more like your momma. Either way is fine with me!

After dinner, we wrestled with Will on the floor, had the usual bath time, and then snuggled up with some books. Will chose Charlie The Ranch Dog and Let Me Hold You Longer...2 books that I am sure will be your favorites too in no time! I think Will could sense that I was a bit anxious....he held my hand and ran his other hand through my hair as we read books, something he never does. Then, as I said our prayers, tears streaming down my face, instead of saying "bed! bed!" as soon as I was done, he just let me rock him. I rocked him until he was asleep. I can't remember the last time I was granted that luxury! Rocking Will at the moment is not exactly the most comfortable thing for him...he has gotten so long, and my belly has gotten so large, that he just sort of lays across me. But tonight, he was extra snuggly and gave me a precious wet kiss with a smack that was just what I needed!
You see, Alex, we have prayed for you since before there was you. We know that God has knitted you together as perfect as they come, and we know that our hearts will burst tomorrow with a love we didn't know possible. We will continue to pray for you as you grow. I hope that you and Will are the best of friends. I hope that you always look out for one another and are each others biggest fan. I hope that you both become parents someday so you can know what this kind of love feels like.
We can't wait to meet you tomorrow, precious little one!
Love,
Mommy